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I just made myself super sad looking at pictures of the Poo Dog (India). I miss her so, so much. I just want to bring her back and make her promise to be good and not attack her sister. I miss how excited she got over bubble wrap. I miss how she always wanted to play. I miss how I could give her a new toy, and that toy would be the best thing in the universe - until the next new toy. I want her back. I can't have her back. I want to get inside her brain and understand why she kept doing all those mean things. I just want her to be my baby girl still. I miss her.

It has really sunk in that she is gone. I cried myself to sleep last night. I got 3 migraines in 14 hours today. I can't stop thinking of her feeling confused and scared. I want to go give her hugs and all her toys and explain everything to her. I want the last 3 years to have been completely different for her. Why did she keep fighting? Why? Why couldn't we make her stop? I love her so much.

I tried to call and check on her today, but they are closed to the public on Tuesdays. I miss her. I miss her. I miss her.

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coral
Nov. 29th, 2006 04:01 am (UTC)
I wish all of that too.
krizsa
Nov. 29th, 2006 04:02 am (UTC)
*hugs*
latitude11
Nov. 29th, 2006 05:16 am (UTC)
I can't even imagine how tough it must be, I am so sorry :(
sourlemon
Nov. 29th, 2006 05:42 am (UTC)
I hate so much that you're going through this, Stephanie. :(
tomorrowsangel
Nov. 29th, 2006 10:17 am (UTC)
Im sorry steph. Hugs
lkell
Nov. 29th, 2006 11:05 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry you are having to go through this. I wish anything we could say could help.
profwidow
Nov. 29th, 2006 01:35 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
electricsoup
Nov. 29th, 2006 02:40 pm (UTC)
i'm so sorry :(
(Anonymous)
Nov. 29th, 2006 07:17 pm (UTC)
Do you miss living in fear?........Stay strong.You made the right decision.
punquin
Nov. 29th, 2006 07:26 pm (UTC)
There are plenty of things I don't miss, of course. In fact, if a noisy car drives by the house, I look around the room thinking India is there growling. It became such a normal thing.

I miss all the good, sweet things about her.
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